Blog on the go...

Im excited to be able to blig from my phone. Look at this thing I made:

Long Time No Blog.

I'm not entirely sure anyone is reading anyway but this is a great outlet for me so I'll blog when I can and one day read back and laugh at my self... (At least that's what I do with all those old journals from when I was a young girl through my early 20s.  Those are the things comedies are built on... LOL.

Anyway... I was reading over my last blog where I was in a state of hopelessness when blogging.  There have been many changes since then and there are many things that are the same.  Work... meh!  Home... better...  but during the last few weeks I had an epiphany.  To many times we look externally for happiness.  We expect our loved ones and the people around us to be accountable for our morale and that is where my mind has been for a few months now.  I have expected others to contribute to my happiness and that is where I failed because ultimately I am the ONLY person that is in control of that.  I sought out my managers to do the right thing (according to my mind).  I expected my family to understand and contribute (without explanation) and that ultimately lead to my own disappointment. 

Yes, the people who love me genuinely care about my happiness and no matter how hard they try unless I am truly happy with myself there is not really anything they can do to contribute.  I decided that I would come up off of my PITY POT and take charge of my happiness.  Learn to recognize when my loved ones were trying and learn to understand that aside from a handful of people the only person who really cares if I am happy is ME... and ultimately I am the only one who can do a damn thing about it. 

So...  I picked myself up... dusted off....  took a long hard look at myself in the mirror and said "Suck it up Candy Ass.... Get Happy!!!!"