18 July 2011

Hopeless

That is where I am.  I am hopeless.  Which is different than my usual self.  Ask my friends and family... I usually have a very positive "nothings gonna get me down" attitude about things... but lately I cant even muster a smile.  I have lived with a migrain or tention headache daily for two weeks... (great new meds by the way). 

Work is highly stressful... we are "lean and mean" for contract rebid so that means all the extra load is (unevenly) dispersed among the remaining bodies and the pressure is building... we have already had one eruption (lead by me of course)... but that didnt even help.  It feels like now one false move and your getting the axe...

Home... hmmm let me see.  I feel completely disrespected by everyone in it.  I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out...